rock it

...hard....which is exactly what I did to my Systems exam this morning. I was freaking out all day yesterday about not knowing the information but I woke up at 4AM (as per my norm study routine) and within an hour and a half I had pretty much champed out everything there was to know. I took my time on the exam and I feel that I did very well. Now all thats left is to:
Finish Java
Java Lab
Work on the Debate Tonight
Present the Debate Tomorrow
Review papers for CIVE 240
Finish my job application
Get my physical and drug test for co-op
Run a trip on Saturday to Great Adventure
Fix my financial aid package
Finish my JAVA Final Project
...and of course work at the admissions office (including events)

....yea I love my life...haha.....sigh


Currently Listening to : "A moment of Violence" by Streetlight Manifesto

things and such

So it's week 8 of our 10-week term and things should be coming to a close....but they aren't. It seems like whenver i finish my work, there's always more to be done that I've forgotten about. I relly don't have any time anymore: between Warriors, school, and 2 jobs....I need a break. I'm supposed to get a 2-week vacation between the end of class and the start of my next co-op.....but.... they want me to start a week early, so i'll just have to make the best with what i'm given (story of my life).

I feel like i haven't slept since this term started, I've even had to start drikning coffee again just to function normally. Maybe next term will be easier, although I'm living in the Pike house....so we'll see how that goes.

I just need to step back and reevaluate some things in my life, but i feel like if i take that time, that i'll miss something.......what to do....

Currently Listening "Swing Sweet Pussycat" by: Atomic Fireballs.

updates and the like

these last few weeks have been utterly hectic (what else is new in my life haha). Aside form working 25 hrs a week, 16 credits, PKA, PGN, and Weekend Warriors.... I feel like i have no life anymore. When i finally do get some free time, I'm usually too tired to do anything productive.

Is this what I'm destined for? work....eat...sleep, repeat? I really hope not. I guess I'll just keep my hopes up and wish that something new and exciting will come along.

But even so...i feel kind of old. I'm arguably the youngest on many of my circles, but I feel a lot older than most of the people I know. I think i just got used to being in a professional environment on my lost co-op, and now it kind of pisses me off when people can't behave and do what is required of them. It's really hard being the President of WW sometimes, theres a lot of work, and you need to rely on others more often than yourself. but o well, I guess this is all good practice lol!

On another note, I've been feeling really conflicted lately (if you couldn't tell from my previous post haha). There a so many things tha I want to accomplish, and that I want to see come to fruition, but it seems like everywhere I turn there is something or someone holding me back. I remember a time when life was so hard that I was forced to rely on others just to survive....and now that others are failing me left and right.....I think I'm scared that it will go back to what it used to be.....

that's enough of that
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Soooo, I've finally made a decision on where I will be living next year. Originally I was planning on living with one of my brothers. Dipin, but the spot in his has got taken, so I ended up living in the Pike house (my fraternity). I've got a couple trepidations about this arrangement, but I really have no other place to go. Hopefully I can score one of the smaller rooms upstairs so I can get enought sleep for work, rather then have to live in the 5 person room on the 2nd floor.

We'll see how it goes

Currently Listening: "Now or Never" Three Days Grace

stepping back

....is really hard. I never realized how difficult it is to fully remove yourself from a given situation in order to look at it subjectively. When faced with life's trials and tribulations, we oft get emotionally attached and this imparies our decision making porcessi.....so I think im going to practice this. Not to be ant-social or anything, but I think I need to focus more on what is importatnt in life, not just the whims I tend to be feeling at the time, or the supposed requirements of everydaylife (except for breathing, thats kind of important all-around).
It seems as if emotional attachement has been getting me into trouble lately, so i guess I need some time to remove myself from the situation, think about what I want, and then, when I've got a clear head (and conscience) can I put myself back on the path that I was following (should I choose to remain). I think these little self-evaluations are important in life, just as in the professional world, you have task meetings with your coworkers....well this is kind of an introverted meeting (complete with me talking to myself haha....not that I'm crazy or anything....)


Currently Listening: "Forgiven" by Relient K

letting go...

of yourself every now and then feels so good. However you do it, whatever the venue I recommend just......letting go.

For me..letting go comes when listening to my favorite songs on the radio or google-video. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and just leaving my town, riding the highways until the early hours of the morning. Maybe it was the thrill of speeding on the parkway, maybe it was the feel of wind rushing past my face, or maybe it was the almost-deafening stereo system pumping out my emotions. Whatever it was...I miss it. Sometime life just gets so hectic and so cramped with all of the things that we convince ourselves actually matter, when really, they are unimportant. I think we all need to slow down and remember a time when we were simpler people, a time when the feelings of others meant more to us than any thing we could ever own or accomplish in our time that we have.

I truly believe that real happiness, you know the storybook kind, really does exist. However, I think we all look for it in the wring places. We spend so much of our lives looking for a good time, or a way to just forget, or we get by on simple distractions. I think I've learned in the past few months that these distractions do more than just take our attention away from stress, they change us, make us dependant on them, and eventually we can't function without them. Distraction is truly an addiction in every sense of the word.
If we put all of that crap behind us, if just take the time to care about ourselves, and more importantly each other, not only our lives, but the world, will be a better place.

I'm honestly sick and tired of people who have no drive in life, who just sit on their ass all day and accomplish nothing. "What man can call himself so, who does not change the world in which he lives!" This quote has been ringing in my ears for a while now, and the ringing has become true. Our purpose, our very existence on this Earth is conditional on how we make our mark; not on our professionalism, our looks, our talent, our fiscal situation....none of that amounts to anything. IT'S HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER that has the lasting effect on the world.

Take for instance the fireman... He runs into burning buildings....why...Is he crazy, does he get paid the big bucks, will he ever become a millionaire......no. He does it because he knows that he will help someone, make a lasting, positive difference in someones life. Even if there is a large chance that he won't make it out alive, he still goes into the inferno, because somewhere beneath the flames, someone is in need of help, someone is in need of saving; and I bet that he goes to bed each night happier than the richest person in history, knowing that he has made a difference, that he has helped someone who otherwise would have come to harm.

This post started out about ways to vent frustration and stress, and ended up as a stress reliever in itself. I hope all of you who read this (if anyone does) takes something away from it. Remember what it was like to put others before yourself, and strive to be a better person, to make a positive difference in the lives of everyone you meet. For it is only in the happiness of others that wee can truly be happy ourselves.

-Pete

boom ticka

Sooooooooooooo. Interviews are over.....very nice! I'm not terribly excited about any of them, but whatev. My last coop employer (EwingCole) called me up and asked me to return.....we'll see. The work there was kind of boring, but it was easy money so I guess I shouldn't complain.

In other news, classes have started up again and I'm already feeling overwhelmed. I'm only taking 16 credits this term, but throw that in with 2 part time jobs and....well....you get the picture. However, my one part time job as a writing intensive tutor is the easiest thing i've done in my entire life. Seriously, breathing takes more effort than this job. I sit in an office for a acouple hours, rip people's papers apart, and get paid for it...I couldn't have asked for a better job haha.

Tomorrow is the 4th of July and I'm excited to of course not have to go to class, but that I'll be able to see the fireworks over the Art Museum again. Last year was a whole lot of fun (even though it rained). I kind of miss going home for these holidays; my friends and I used to sit out on the docks, or one of our boats and watch the fireworks over the bay......those were some good times. O well, I guess it's time to make some new memories!

Currently Listening to: "Bring me to Life": Evanescence

Here we go again!

Soooooooooooo, finals are finally finished, and it's interview time again (didn't i JUST do this last year?) I tell you, this past year has flew by without me even knowing, but hey, i guess that happens when you keep busy.
Here's a little recap:
-I completed my first ever co-op, working with EwingCole. It was meh, but I did get to help design the New Giants stadium that's going up in the Meadowlands which was prett sweeet.
- While on co-op I went through the pledge process to become a brother of Pi Kappa Alpha, the leading social fraternity on campus. Shortly after, we won Dean's cup, as well as Greek Week (a nice way to start of my time as a brother). After finishing co-op, I returned to the perpetual grindstone that is tDEC, completing my 4th and next to last term.
- During all this I continued my work with Drexel Roller Hockey and Phi Gamma Nu.
- My student Organization, Weekend Warriors, successfuly planned and executed a week-long trip to Vermont to ski. This was a HUGE milemarker for my organization, and I am very proud of all those who contributed.

......More to come soon...

Currently Listening to: "We are the few," Streetlight Manifesto