Tuesday, July 24, 2007

stepping back

....is really hard. I never realized how difficult it is to fully remove yourself from a given situation in order to look at it subjectively. When faced with life's trials and tribulations, we oft get emotionally attached and this imparies our decision making porcessi.....so I think im going to practice this. Not to be ant-social or anything, but I think I need to focus more on what is importatnt in life, not just the whims I tend to be feeling at the time, or the supposed requirements of everydaylife (except for breathing, thats kind of important all-around).
It seems as if emotional attachement has been getting me into trouble lately, so i guess I need some time to remove myself from the situation, think about what I want, and then, when I've got a clear head (and conscience) can I put myself back on the path that I was following (should I choose to remain). I think these little self-evaluations are important in life, just as in the professional world, you have task meetings with your coworkers....well this is kind of an introverted meeting (complete with me talking to myself haha....not that I'm crazy or anything....)


Currently Listening: "Forgiven" by Relient K

Thursday, July 12, 2007

letting go...

of yourself every now and then feels so good. However you do it, whatever the venue I recommend just......letting go.

For me..letting go comes when listening to my favorite songs on the radio or google-video. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and just leaving my town, riding the highways until the early hours of the morning. Maybe it was the thrill of speeding on the parkway, maybe it was the feel of wind rushing past my face, or maybe it was the almost-deafening stereo system pumping out my emotions. Whatever it was...I miss it. Sometime life just gets so hectic and so cramped with all of the things that we convince ourselves actually matter, when really, they are unimportant. I think we all need to slow down and remember a time when we were simpler people, a time when the feelings of others meant more to us than any thing we could ever own or accomplish in our time that we have.

I truly believe that real happiness, you know the storybook kind, really does exist. However, I think we all look for it in the wring places. We spend so much of our lives looking for a good time, or a way to just forget, or we get by on simple distractions. I think I've learned in the past few months that these distractions do more than just take our attention away from stress, they change us, make us dependant on them, and eventually we can't function without them. Distraction is truly an addiction in every sense of the word.
If we put all of that crap behind us, if just take the time to care about ourselves, and more importantly each other, not only our lives, but the world, will be a better place.

I'm honestly sick and tired of people who have no drive in life, who just sit on their ass all day and accomplish nothing. "What man can call himself so, who does not change the world in which he lives!" This quote has been ringing in my ears for a while now, and the ringing has become true. Our purpose, our very existence on this Earth is conditional on how we make our mark; not on our professionalism, our looks, our talent, our fiscal situation....none of that amounts to anything. IT'S HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER that has the lasting effect on the world.

Take for instance the fireman... He runs into burning buildings....why...Is he crazy, does he get paid the big bucks, will he ever become a millionaire......no. He does it because he knows that he will help someone, make a lasting, positive difference in someones life. Even if there is a large chance that he won't make it out alive, he still goes into the inferno, because somewhere beneath the flames, someone is in need of help, someone is in need of saving; and I bet that he goes to bed each night happier than the richest person in history, knowing that he has made a difference, that he has helped someone who otherwise would have come to harm.

This post started out about ways to vent frustration and stress, and ended up as a stress reliever in itself. I hope all of you who read this (if anyone does) takes something away from it. Remember what it was like to put others before yourself, and strive to be a better person, to make a positive difference in the lives of everyone you meet. For it is only in the happiness of others that wee can truly be happy ourselves.

-Pete

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

boom ticka

Sooooooooooooo. Interviews are over.....very nice! I'm not terribly excited about any of them, but whatev. My last coop employer (EwingCole) called me up and asked me to return.....we'll see. The work there was kind of boring, but it was easy money so I guess I shouldn't complain.

In other news, classes have started up again and I'm already feeling overwhelmed. I'm only taking 16 credits this term, but throw that in with 2 part time jobs and....well....you get the picture. However, my one part time job as a writing intensive tutor is the easiest thing i've done in my entire life. Seriously, breathing takes more effort than this job. I sit in an office for a acouple hours, rip people's papers apart, and get paid for it...I couldn't have asked for a better job haha.

Tomorrow is the 4th of July and I'm excited to of course not have to go to class, but that I'll be able to see the fireworks over the Art Museum again. Last year was a whole lot of fun (even though it rained). I kind of miss going home for these holidays; my friends and I used to sit out on the docks, or one of our boats and watch the fireworks over the bay......those were some good times. O well, I guess it's time to make some new memories!

Currently Listening to: "Bring me to Life": Evanescence